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Long time no talk [20 Oct 2005|12:53am]
[ mood | distressed ]

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Complete and Utter Mistake [14 Sep 2005|10:44pm]
[ mood | angry ]

So I've probably made the biggest mistake of my young adult life. I've never really understood the reasons why some people are the way the are. Well now I know. I just want to say that I'll be fixing the problem myself. And soon.

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Sound of shit [07 Sep 2005|12:53am]
[ mood | discontent ]

So just saw the worst movie ever...SOUND OF THUNDER...

In the words of Denise, "It's Jarassic Park, The Time Machine, and Jumanji in one movie...which equals shit."

Getting trained in booth at work. Excited. Damn Don for giving me regular staff shifts...shouldn't have pissed him off. Damn it.

Talking to Mike again. He's changed. I like him more than I did. I think we've both grown.

Also talking to someone from MYSPACE. Josh. A really nice guy.

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Hurricane Katrina...what a bitch. [01 Sep 2005|02:13am]
[ mood | confused ]

So I've been watching alot of CNBC lately. And I noticed how much our country is suffering right now.

A. Hurricane Katrina.
OK. So we have AID RELIEF and where are they?? Dunno. People are dying of hunger and thirst because they can't seem to understand that half of the New Orleans population is poverty striken. So where does that leave us...? Oh, thats right...nowhere. If we could just get things organized "relief" wise, things wouldn't be so horrible.

B. Gas prices. Fucking ridiculous. It's more like WTF and OMFG. On Hillsbourough I got gas for $2.79. Which was the cheapest I could find. So I should probably grab empty gallon jugs and fill them before gas is $3.79 a gallon.

C. Bush. Yay for democrats. :) I could just blame it on the way the news presents it...nah. Forget it.

Transporter 2...yeah, about that...SO FREAKIN EXCITED.

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Small Dinner Party [30 Aug 2005|12:12am]
[ mood | quixotic ]

So tonight we had a small dinner party. Michael came over too. So Brad was supposed to "heat" his moms lasanga up...def didn't. lol. So Michael had to cook. lol. Gay men can cook. We had Spetti and veggies. yummy.

Then we watched Closer. Love that movie. ::Enter ginormous smile::

So I work the rest of the week. Blah. Dear Don...kthanx.

Natalie Portmans Stalker.

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PS [28 Aug 2005|02:35am]



All the gangsta's in the hiz raise yo hand!!!

K thanks.

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Denise....yo [28 Aug 2005|12:25am]
[ mood | drunk ]

So yesterday and tonight was Denise's 18th birthday party celebration. It was amazing. Friday night we went to Chambers/The Loft. So much freakin fun. I had the best time I could ever ask for. Denise got the lap dance that she wanted. Which was basically a bunch of male genitalia in her face. Then we (Mikey, Brad, Denise, Jarrett, Lee, and I) hooked it up at Dennys. Didn't get to bed until...hmmm...4am or so.

Woke up and had to get a pay day advance. Great way to start a day. Let me tell you...

Saturday night we had a tote party at the apartment. Some cool cats showed up. Alotta booze. Which I consumed alot of. No projectile shit though. :)

Ok. Well about to pass out from the extreme headache I acquired around 12:30am.

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Poo [23 Aug 2005|02:32pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So yeah. Supposed to clean today. Not happening.

My skin is freaking out. I fucking hate combination skin.

Denise's 18th birthday is in 4 days. EXCITING.

I need money! Psh.

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An All time low [17 Aug 2005|02:31am]
[ mood | Fucked Up ]

So Sam has probably been wasted everyday for the last week. Its catching up to me. I feel numb and sick to my stomach. Food has no taste and color isn't nearly as bright as it used to be. I took up smoking again...disgusting. I hate smokers. But I smoke...Cause that makes a whole lotta sense.

I really hate people sometimes. Invite yourself over to my fucking apartment to "Get it on" is probably not the classiest thing to do. If you want to have sex...please get a fucking hotel room and don't act like my friend when all you want to do is FUCK on MY BED. K thanx.

So many people like Don. Even my gay friends like Don. Why does it bother me? I'm a fucking loser.

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You what? [10 Aug 2005|04:09pm]
[ mood | sad ]

HA. So yeah. Today is my only day off and I'm cleaning the apartment. Every moment is becoming a daze. I'm here by myself. Jarrett went out with his baby daddy. Lee is off to work. Brad and Denise are at work.

Have a shit load of SHIT to do today...and its already 4. Grr. I need to start getting to bed before 4 am. My room needs to be dusted. :enter wheezing here:

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New Apartment [01 Aug 2005|09:36pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hey everyone. I'm finally getting a chance to update. Giuseppe brought over his laptop so I'm taking full advantage of it. We got our internet connected but I have to get my wireless router from my house. Moved into our apartment and I must say its quite nice. Were all pretty much getting along. We have 2 other "roomates". lol. Jarrett and Lee. Lee doesnt really live here but hes company is pretty much awesome. Their both incredibly gorgeous. Brad loves them both to death.

Work is getting ridiculous. 45+ this week. Don is being ignored by me because I don't have the strength to further pursue my obsession. -End Note

On other news. Samantha needs a boyfriend. I really dont know where to begin with needing the physical part of it...but also the mental feeling of being with someone. The only guys I meet these days are...
A. Gay. Hot. But gay.
B. Working Environment. I don't even have to explain.
C. Already has a significant other.

I need more company over. Ever on USF side of town? 846-4168

Don't worry. We are throwing an official party with plenty of booze. Give us time to get our shit together. :)


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[24 Jul 2005|01:24am]
[ mood | scared ]

OK. So. If your reading this, then you are invited to a paint party. Not really a party...but a gathering of people who want to help paint our (Denise, Brad, and I) new apartment. :)

When: Tuesday March 26th, Anytime between the hours of 11am-?
Where:From AMC 24

Take a left onto Anderson from the AMC parking lot.
Drive to Linebaugh.
Take a right on Linebaugh.
Drive to Dale Mabry.
Take a left onto Dale Mabry.
Drive till you get to Fletcher.
Take a right onto Fletcher.
Take Fletcher ALL THE WAY TO 50TH Street. Yes...it is going to be a long drive.
Take a right onto 50th. Second Apartment complex on the left. THE EXCELLENCE.
Apt. B-150

Call when you arrive.


Basically these are my directions that I made. There's no way you can get it wrong. If your gonna go, leave me a comment so I know whos coming. Were going to get our internet hooked up sometime on the 1st of August. I'm looking for another job. Anyone know if anyones hiring??

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[15 Jul 2005|10:19pm]
Who's got a Kodak?...HEY! Someone get that bear outta here!Collapse )
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Listen to your best friend. She may have some great advice. [15 Jul 2005|09:57pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Went to the beach in Englewood, Florida, with Denise. Much much fun. Stayed in a condo less than 12 feet from the beach. I love the genorosity Michael always extends. Met Chad's "other" best friend Tim. I love Tim now. But I still love Jake. No one can replace Jake. MINE.

Hung around Thursday. Way too hot. Too many Jelly Fish and other CARNIVOROUS (As Denise so famously put) sea animals. Thursday night...Chad decides along with all his other redneck friends to sucker me into driving to EVERY GAS STATION in this already small town to find someone who will sell us some very illegal underaged alcohol. I give Denise some mad props. She went in twice. I...didn't even leave the driver seat.

The passenger seat was occupied by a young confederate...named RYAN OR ROBERT...Bryan...I had no clue who this guy was. All he cared to utter to me was..."You can't go in there and try to buy something...you have a baby face."..."I know I've met you somewhere before..." SO basically already trying to sweet talk his way into getting something...What it was...I would eventually find out. So finally Tim got some beer and smirnoffs. Which was alot. Got back to the beach...walked to the complete darkness of what you call mango trees. And almost got swallowed alive Buick size misquitos. Thankfully for "Off" they only bit me about...5 times. Fuck West Nile.

Started to drink with about 7 other guys. 3 Beers and 2 Smirnoffs later...being asked a question with a seriousness that would almost frighten the sober. Not listening to what my best friend said with the best intentions in mind... I ignored her. Did what I did. Now I regret it...and feel disgustingly dirty. Even knowing I would probably never see this person again. Basically I felt like a slut. And I don't know how any girl in this country can do something like that all the time...and be OK with it.

I would almost tell my self the next morning that I will never drink near temptation again...but I would lying to myself. This will probably something that happens to alot of you. But I recommend taking a second look at what your going to feel the next instant or morning after.

To better news. I will be uploading pics in my next entry that will be posted soon.

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It hurts more than I should let it. [11 Jul 2005|01:04am]
[ mood | blah ]

Manager+Feelings=A really bad day

So I need a sign. Something like...

1. "Fuck off. I hate you."
2. "Your a loser who likes me. And I don't like you."
3. "What part of MANAGER do you not understand??"
4. "What part of REGULAR STAFF do you not understand??"
5. "You don't know me...And you like me?? What the fuck is you problem?"
6. "Stop looking at me. You make me feel ugly..."

None of these signs...as you can tell...are good ones. Samantha needs something else to occupy her already booked schedule of things to do in her life.

absurd, beyond, cureless, futile, hardly possible, impassable, impervious, impracticable, impractical, inaccessible, inconceivable, inexecutable, infeasible, insurmountable, irrealizable, irreparable, no go, no way, no-win, preposterous, too much, unachievable, unattainable, uncorrectable, unfeasible, unimaginable, unobtainable, unreasonable, unrecoverable, unthinkable, unworkable, useless, visionary


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Rain [02 Jul 2005|02:49pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

So it's once again raining...I work July 4th. Which pretty much sucks. So does Denise...We get off around 11:30...if ANYONE IS DOING ANYTHING...call me or her. We would much appreciate doing something.

My tat is better. I have Wednesday off...maybe the beach?? If it doesn't rain.

My parents don't understand that I will be moving out in approx...24 days. And I really need some serious cash to actually get some freaking furniture. The only thing that we have is a dining room table that Brad bought. Which is very awesome...but we have yet to sit down and talk about a phone/internet line, rules, paint for the paint party...that were supposed to have, and general furniture...like a tv and or couch. I really dont give a shit about what anything looks like besides my room and bathroom. I need to go to wal-mart and put some serious shit on layaway.

*Dresser...the one I have now is kind of expensive and my stepdad wont allow me to bring it...basically because he thinks im going to destroy it.
*Book shelf/s
*Computer chair...the one I have is shit.
*New bed comforter...The one I have is also shit.
*Head and foot board for my bed...never actually got one...
*Night stand?

Basically...I need a credit card...

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EAW (Employee Appreciation Week) [28 Jun 2005|07:28pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

So this week is EAW. Which is pretty awesome considering the great shit that's happening.

Friday. Dessert Day
Saturday. Chik-fil-a Day
Sunday. Ice Cream Day
Monday. Free bowling from 4-9
Tuesday. Picnic at Al Lopez
Wednesday. Pizza Day
Thursday. Game Day. (Xbox and PS2 on big screen, Scavenger Hunt)

Basically theres a 95% chance that its going to be the greatest week ever...

Screened War of the Worlds on Monday night. 2 days before it is scheduled to come out. Pretty cool shit. I suggest seeing it.

My tat is itching SO BAD. It's a little insane. So I'll probably be getting someones negatives, because I didn't take any pics at bowling or the picnic. Then I'll post them. I would post some of my tat...But my uber best friend (Amanda) has yet to partake in sending them to me...lol

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Merry Christmas!! [17 Jun 2005|12:02pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

So I finally got a tattoo. Sheena got a butterfly and Amanda being the baller that she is, got 2 (Linux peguin, and a caffine molecule!) LOL. I screamed like a little bitch. Never again. So...Pics coming soon!

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Can't take my eyes off of you [06 Jun 2005|10:58pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

So it is. Sam needs a hobby. Not much has happened in 5 days. I worked a 15 hour box shift on Saturday. With about a 1 hour break. Went to Perkins with Denise on Sunday night. Met Drew, our waiter. Who graduated from Sickles class of 2003. What a weird guy. It's a little chilly in my house right now. Like cold. Freezing? Yeah.

So I work at 8 tomorrow. So lettme peace out before I once again get 5 hours of sleep.

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